Part of me just wants to ignore every one of the words that was written here to hurt me, make fun of me, or belittle me. That's what Julian and some of my kinder readers have said to me here, on VJ and through PMs. But I would have to be a robot not to feel some hurt at what has been said.
Maybe I have chosen to make part of my life public, but I didn't MEAN to make it as public as I have, clearly. I meant for this to be a blog that I used to talk about what I'm going through with the visa. I mean, there are so many people on VJ who link to their blogs, and I never see THEM getting beaten up for what they write! I asked a simple question on VJ about whether I should close down comments because I knew if I asked here, I would just get attacked. Well, I got attacked on VJ as well.
So I have decided to make comments open only to those who register. If you really need to comment, you'll go through the trouble to register. Maybe it will make some people think before posting, and consider that I am a real life human being like you, with feelings and dreams and worries, just like you. If this blog is teaching me anything, it's that the people I have around me are a lot nicer than I had ever really appreciated.
I don't have a lot else to say right now; I miss Julian still so much. It looks like we will be closing on the house in a couple of weeks, and as soon as Julian and I have our names on the title I am giving notice on this apartment. Still waiting on our NOA2. Still at work, still dealing with Dana. Life just seems so much more dull without Julian around, and things I found interesting to talk about just aren't what I'm thinking about.
The only bright spot is that I have a good friend who is coming to visit next week -- totally a surprise! And something to distract me while I wait for my life to start again, whenever it is that God and USCIS let my fiance come home to me at last.
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Looks like you've frightened the anonymous wankers off love. :) :) For anyone that's got useful information, please do register and say hello. The rest of you can fuck off of course.
ReplyDeleteI guess so, sweetie. I guess I can share here that we got our NOA2 today. Hooray! At last.
ReplyDeleteWhere Alex? I've missed him, and I have a feeling he's missed me a little bit too.
ReplyDeleteMuriel
Oh Muriel. How I've missed you. I am on hols here in your fair country (I assume you are a mail order bride in the States). Still waiting to see your picture to see how you compare to the coltish Melissa. If you're an American, and single, so much the better. I have reason now to be a green card husband myself. I rather like it here.
ReplyDeleteAlex! <3
ReplyDeleteAre you over here to visit me? I hope you're not visiting that bitch Melissa! I think she's trying to steal you from me.
I'm not American, I'm English and single. :o)
Muriel
Ahhh, an English Rose. What's the song by The Jam?
ReplyDeleteNo matter where I roam
I will return to my English Rose
For no bonds can ever keep me from she.
Are you jealous, Muriel? I have my own English rose at home, and I find these American girls good fun. It's far past my bedtime here, but I would love to hear how you would please me. I only hope your real name is something more appealling than your screenname.
Hahaha! I see anonymous comments are back! That didn't last long, did it Melissa? You really are the biggest attention whore.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the NOA2! =)
ReplyDeleteOh God.
ReplyDeleteM., Anonymous comments seem to have re-enabled themselves.
ReplyDeleteAlso, pick up your mobile please.
I can't find my phone anywhere, Julian. I was out late last night and I lost it, I'm so sorry, I didn't know you were trying to contact me. I'm going to be busy again tonight but I will try to call you when I get to work, since I still have to get a replacement phone. I guess we haven't talked in a while, but I have a friend visiting so I am busy.
ReplyDeleteI haven't even checked the comments since I posted last night! I didn't turn them back on when I got in last night, I went straight to bed since it was about 2:30 AM. So weird.
Chinky -- THANK YOU!!! I'm so happy it came. I emailed Julian right away and he said he was glad we could do this step together, like a couple. :)
Alex is in the US and Melissa has a visitor?!?!
ReplyDeleteJust saying.
and Melissa is unavailable by telephone. How convenient!
ReplyDeleteThis whole thing has to be fake. Seriously.
ReplyDelete"Oh I didn't turn the comments back on! How unusual! I guess I'll just have to resign myself to posting ridiculous entries and then crying when people tell me how ridiculous I am! Abloobloobloo! Life is so HARSH!"
ReplyDeleteBwahahahah!
ReplyDeleteFake. Fake. FAKE.
ReplyDeleteMelissa, this is no fun anymore! You make it so obvious that this is all just a pretend blog. Let me guess, the next post will be crying about how you spent all night begging for Julian's forgiveness after you admitted Alex came to visit and you put your mouth on his mouth and he touched your special parts?
ReplyDeleteAre you kidding me? My friend Tara is here visiting me from New York! Just because I didn't mention her name that means Alex is here? He isn't! He is in America but he is visiting friends in Boston. Jesus! And I don't know how comments got reenabled but Blogger can be very buggy, which I have mentioned before. As soon as the software let's me comments are OFF again.
ReplyDeleteYet... you've left all these comments up. If you really did hate the comments, you'd delete them. You just love the attention you get on your fake blog. There is no way you didn't just turn comments back on yourself. Everyone can see through it.
ReplyDeleteAlso, please learn how to use the apostrophe.
ReplyDeleteI said, I am having problems with Blogger! I can't get the comments off and I am TRYING TO DELETE the comments! God. I know you won't leave me alone until I do. Why don't you just register and comment as yourself? God!
ReplyDeleteI know how to use an apostrophe. I amtyping on my blackberry and it autocorrected it to let's. That's never happened to you?
ReplyDeleteYou're trying so hard to delete them that you haven't deleted them! God!
ReplyDeleteGod!
God!
You all are so pathetic. Get a fucking life.
ReplyDeleteI'll tell you who's fake, it's the fucking loser anonymous commenters who can do nothing but foment hate and poison against a woman who is doing nothing but writing her thoughts. And as Melissa said, Alex is in Boston you fucking muppets. You lot call it fake, but you're the ones inventing the drama and the stories. You WANT her and us to fail, and you can't help but fall all over yourselves inventing ways for it to happen. Maybe you all should sign up and just make your own blog since you all fancy a good yarn. Let me know when you do please, so I can post (anonymously natch) the most vile and disgusting things about your personal lives.
ReplyDeleteOh, and thank you to the ONE person who cared enough to congratulate us on our NOA2. ONE fucking person out of the whole lot of you had something kind to say.
ReplyDeleteI just want to wish you good luck with the NOA2! I know that the wait is grueling but it will come. ;) I found you through Chinky's blog. I have to read your previous posts! :)
ReplyDeleteTo be fair, Julian, Melissa didn't write that she got NOA2 in this post, but rather that she was still waiting for it.
ReplyDeleteShe did post it in another thread on VJ though.
Melissa, are you still alive? It's been over a week since your last post.
ReplyDelete